Dad's 2 Cents

I thought it would be good to let Jess write her first post about the new addition to our family full of thoughtful insight and reflexion but... she's just taking too long!  I dont know what shes even doing all day! OBVIOUSLY I'm kidding.  This is the first post from the daddy's point of view.

This entire pregnancy has been surreal for me.  Last time around I was excited, nervous, ANXIOUS, and on and on.  This time it was different for me.  I didnt even seem to be aware that we were having another child.  Graham takes up most of our time and I seemed to be more focused on him than what was to come.  The only worry that I had was if I could handle another one.  If I would be capable of loving someone else enough.  I know that sounds odd but thats what I felt.

Its really overwhelming what your mind and body are capable of.  When I married Jess, she filled my heart with love to the point I didnt think there was room for anyone else.  When we had Graham my heart was overflowing.  I really didnt think that it was going to be possible for me to love this child enough....once again my mind was wrong.  It is the craziest thing to feel your heart grow like mine has this week.  I have what I thought was an impossible amount of love once again. It blows my mind that at first sight you can have such a strong feeling about someone you dont even know yet. Its the one and only advantage I think Jess has when it comes to pregnancy.  She knew him through the burden/blessing of carrying him for 39 weeks. I on the other hand had to wait to meet him.

Jess took this entire pregnancy in stride. She spent the whole pregnancy continuing to take care of me and Graham.  She dealt with the heat. She dealt with the exhaustion. She barely gained any weight.  She never complained. She worked her butt off (literally) until the day she had him, spent a few hours in bed, and is back to working her butt off.  I know there is no one that loves their children more than me except her. She is an inspiration to Graham, Cash, and me teaching us how someone should be as a family member. She thinks about us 100% of the time over herself (something I struggle with).  All the while she does it with such grace and humility. She truly is AMAZING! And I am truly blessed!